On the relationship front... let's say the infantry is still at battle and I'm almost ready to send the calvalry in.

My heart is adjusted to Robert's departure.  I figured out George was not just a fragment, but a chunk of who I love, which is part of why I love him as a friend... maybe more, but it doesn't matter.  He found the girl that fits all of the way.  I made a big scene because the thought of it hurts.  But I would rather he be all the way happy with someone who feels the same than think that may be or am when my heart is still aching for a man that I will never see again.

There are a few that hang around.  I really do not want that, but I am not sure what to do exactly.  The problem is I love their company.  Their jokes.  They are so sweet (not that there are many of they's!).  A girlfriend tried to tell me I'm a slut because I have been dating two men that I am not committed two (I thought bitches like that were why my mother burned her bra... must run with the name Jessica.  Note to self:  NEVER NAME YOUR CHILD JESSICA! but that is another entry.  lol).  Just the same, I wanted to tell the bitch I am faithful to all three.  :) lol

I don't know.  I pray to God that I find the man I am to love now.  It has been a long time and I am not sure why MEN are so afraid of taming the shrew... but now that chivalry is dead, so is courting. 

I know it... I was born in the wrong Century... not decade.

Until next time, I will find something more worthy to complain about. 

I have had much trouble deciding what to write lately.  Things on some levels are going so terribly wrong... but then again.  :)  God has blessed me with the opportunity to go back to work.  I had to beg my doctor who does not have much faith, but is willing to do so to shut me up.  Being home is not the best thing for an active minded person.  It is the absolute worst.  And social security is only enough to keep you... here.  You can't quite afford anything, not even the worst of things.  It makes you a beggar and it creates a hostility in your medical workers that makes them prescription dependent and treatment light.  I will say that Dr. B. and several others have been awesome. 

Crivitz, WI... well that is an inbred, racist joke gone bad.  Let's just say that I am looking forward to being gone.  I am used to 30% of the population believing that lying is an appropriate form of communication... but living here its more like 60% believe it is o.k.  They do not hide their disdain and they are equal hater opportunists.  They don't even like each other, but they all pretend so well.  Highschool is still in effect for the under 40 crowd in this town. 

The rest of life... well I'm getting ready to get back on the ride - government conspiracy be damned!